Thursday, December 23, 2010

I AM JUST A ''STUPID'' common BOY......




I AM JUST A STUPID COMMON BOY
2010 mere sath two aise events huye jise main bhulane ki kosis karta hun per bhul nahi pata ,,
agar main bhul jata hun to sayad phir se main wahi galti karun,phir se main kisi se dur chala jaun or phir se main apne AAp ko kisi k liye tension main dalun.

Meri frnd thi ya hai nahi janta,balki main itna janta hun ki main unhe apna ek acha frnd manta hun,pata nahi wo mujhe manti hai ya nahi---mujhe nahi pata.!!
"',,Ek meri srf ek achi dost hai.
"',,Aur second ek dost se badh kar hai.
(not my gf 1ly frnd)

en dono ki life main ek aisa matter hua jise main publice nahi kar sakta,,bas itna kah sakta hun ki wo metter kuch khaas tha...
us matter kei wajah se tension to kafi hua aur sath hi sath bechaini bhi kafi hue..
"har frnd apni frnd ki hi bhalayi chahta hai"

Recentaly.....
Aisa hi maine kiya apni frnd ko mehfuj rakhne ke liye maine kafi kadam means-apni frnd ko samjhaya_kafi samjhaya lekinwo COMFIRME nahi thi decision kya le wo
"main apni frnd ki mehfuj karne ke liye maine apni frndshp kab khatre main daal di pata hi nahi chala."
main ek frnd ko YES (HAAN) kehne se aur Ek ko NO (NAA) kahne se frndshp gawayin.
sirf YES or NO kehne se frndshp break ho gayi.!!!
lekin mujhe khushi es baat ki hai ki wo kam se kam decision to liya
No,,YEs ka jo confusion us matter main tha clear to kiya.
1stly decision to liya
us waqt meri frndshp nahi uska decision ahmiyat rakhta hai
lekin dicesion lene se pehle thoda to socha hota ki main galat hun ya sahi
ye nahi socha --decision le liya balki maine wahi bataya tha jo sahi aur mera farj tha-mera koi galat irada nahi tha.
meri frnd se sirf yahi kaha tha ki
''mujhe tumse baat nahi karni,mujhe akele rahna hai''
mere pass kahne ke liye kuch bhi nahi tha.
achi baat ye thi ki usne decision liya....

main apne aap ko stupid isliye kah raha hun ki maine agar apna suggetion ya opinion nahi dea hota to ham combind, hote aur abhi frnd bhi hote!!!!! .
1... mujhe ye nahi samjh aaya abhi tak jo mujhe pata tha wah mujhe hi pata hona tha .!!
2....main hi kyun fansha!!
3....main hi kyun us matter main involve hua!!!
main hi kyun,,main hi kyun,,main hi kyun?????????????????????
main kcuh hi baate share kar sakta hun..
top secret publish nahi kar sakta hun...ye thoda sa view point tha mera.


''' Main duniya se nahi darta ,
darta hun to sirf apne DIL se""
S. ali